A couple of days later I reread what I'd written and decided it wasn't that I wasn't ready to post it, it was that I was scared to post. I wrote it while I was feeling very sad and I was afraid that through the post, I would reveal too much. Would make people feel bad. Would make people uncomfortable. I always worry about what other people think so again, I decided that I would wait a little longer to publish my post.
And now, two weeks later, I am still conflicted. I'm sure you are wondering, "What in the world could cause so much conflict? Just post already!" That is when I wonder if fellow bloggers ever feel as I do about posting what we actually feel. Do people (and by people, in theory I mean the world) really want to know?
The conflict isn't about how I feel and if it is justified. People experience all kinds of emotions and there certainly isn't a rule book that states what you are supposed to feel in any given situation. I'm not worried that readers will question my feelings but rather they will finish reading and say, "Wow. I really didn't need all THAT during my happy blog-reading time." My concern is in the blogging rule book, which I have yet to see. Do you protect your readers from yourself? Is a blog for the blogger or the reader?
If the blog is for the blogger, a true web log, then the answer is post away! If the blog is for the reader, it becomes much more complicated. Personally, I assume that the people who read my blog are mostly friends and family, who care about me, and would want to know how I'm feeling, even if it is lousy or sad. At the same time, how impersonal is it to let your friends and family know you are feeling down in the dumps by posting it to the universe? BUT, I often compose my thoughts much better when I write them down. (Scary I know, considering some of my other posts!)
So which direction shall I go? Do I stick with mostly light topics, rants and raves and anecdotes, or do I let a little (or a lot!) of the personal side in sometimes?